在自己擅长的英语上都比人笨 还不要脸 脸皮厚

唱歌事业也结束
没人care 的
唱的好听难听都是一个样子

其它？更是什么也不行

第一次在后座哭的稀里哗啦

你就是flop你天生就没法像某些人那样优秀 你就是不行 你还是个人渣

It is definitely one of the most humiliating moments and I can’t deny how embarrassed and guilty I was for being a totally idiot and loser. Such a shame that I haven’t realized it for a long time. They were sitting together, talking things I don’t get, excluding me as usual. I was there, unaware of what’s wrong until the teacher said you didn’t get this, and I was like I did, cuz I thought I did, but I wasn’t, and I was still their, trying to hide my frustration, knowing I wasn’t fine but still trying to fake a face to show ppl or maybe just myself it’s okay. Then basically nothing happened and... well nothing really happened With a blank space in my mind, I know i’ve ****ed up, this time, it’s not because of anything else it’s because of yourself .

And I know my one of my best friends posted something she doesn’t want me to see
And I know this is all kind of messed up
And I know I said no more mental breakdowns
But